So,my right side went out, went to er on the urging of others. Did and mri. Turns out it is MS multiple sclerosis. I cant hold a pen or anything with my right hand. Been in hospital a few days .
Its upstate ny so the masks are a big thing here, so you would think,... the staff makes a big deal about it, come night time and night staff when they are in their work stations with each other , their masks come off.
Nobody is coughing here save that one dude with copd, beds are open. No mass graves. And staff is in disagreement over the merits and legitamcy of it.
Well..., I kinda wanna tell this stuff to that faction leader and i kinda dont. I wanna tell him maybe just try talking first next time but i doubt hed listen. I wanna ask if his spouse is in genuine recovery or if its just an edgy name for lols. I aint sure how to get across how unimpressed i am with threats. Youve got slightly larger numbers on me and an extra year head start with all of that, how did your stealth fail buddy? Mmm? Do you know? No. If you knew you wouldna gave yourself away. Meh, i learn new stuff about torn everyday myself. Guess i cant say im green no more. Gotta give much love to all the veterans and all their guides , they've truly given every noob all the tools they need to succeed in any way the individual wishes to go. With those tools and the direct help the community ive really been enjoying my path and uplifting those I serve.
So , mr big man , i remain unimpressed. We remain on differnt sides of the street and i just fine with that. Hope you chill with the agro bravado cause i serously doubt ya do it to the stronger. Shame ya never learned about strength of character. Oh well, I aint your dad. Im just a dude grooving on this wonderful text based adveture.
Hello blog. Apparently some people dont like you. But thats ok I like you. And others do too so it aint just me and you.
OH SHIT yesterday was rough. The counsoler (sp) insisted upon my writing down and sharing my story. Ive told it so much I tried to avoid as much writing as possible but she did say i could just do bullet points so thats what i did. Typically i can tell the story with out the tear works but not yesterday.
We went over the happy childhood that got uprooted for my 15th birthday with the murder suicide. The fact that I am forever the son of a murderer because of his actions. The wonderlust I went through in the years afterwards. I might of skipped over some of the homeless parts. The times in jail was not skipped over. Then my ged, my massage therapy degree, my time when i had my shop at the Giagnagante indoor flea market and how it went down when the building manager hired new security that decided to harrass vendors instead of protect them. Gee I wonder why the place shut down a year later. What a mystery. Then we got to the wife, the drinking she brough with her and to me. Our child. The pregancy and my inablity to convince her not to drink while pregnant. The divorce. The betrayal of karen who assited in the kiddnapping. The international court fights. The resolution and currently arrangements And into today.
Ugh. It is easier telling you. No water works. Still ugh. Didnt touch on anything Hannah.
That is a whole nother issue. I havent reached out to her after winning the court case. Im gonna wait for December. Either she has christmas baby or she doesnt.
Still alcohol free. After that MS thing I couldn't drink that pain away . they say for cases like mine where a person fell into addiction as a result of horrible wrongs inflicted upon them as opposed to actions done to themselves by themselves (which is still rough)they say that we have the worst odds of recovery and it normally takes a near death experience or something close to it to rattle us out of it. That MS attack and diagnosis just may count. My mentalmmindspace is clearing up but I felt much better clarity after the acupuncture. Gonna have to give that another shot sometime. Lol ex wife is getting acupuncture regularly now days. Ive told her she can get it done for addiction too but shes still on the fence about that. Im smirking to myself.the longer i stay sober the more i know shes gonna have to outdo me. Its just a matter of time. Bet ya five bucks she goes for the addiction treatment of it all with in the next 3 months.
So, yeah. The retelling of the story put me in a funk all day feeling better today though . snows all melted andmwere gonna have one last week of good temps before winter truely sets in.
Oh i aslo talked with 39th about things with wolfjunk. Sent the requests things. Looking back over it all, its been a great wonderful time here in torn. So very glad the ex girlfriend introduced me to it. Its been tough sometimes but that feeling of growing stronger than your former bully.. oh yeah. I aint felt that since grade school. I BEEN DRINKING MY MILK MOTHER f**kER WHAT NOW lol hahaha. Still , theirs always my boys to consider. They all getting stronger too. 2 of em can stand up to wj and two others were real close so weve all been doing good chaining and training. The gains are showing.
Work wise got a new job at a hair salon. 1 jp knocks off 30 min of education time. f**k the hell yes please!
The sponsorship of double, deal,or steal goes great. Zenarith is a real cool guy. Good artist too! May have to commision more stuff from him....definitely gonna have to commission more stuff from him lol.
Welp, ive put off house cleaning long enough. Time return this bachelor pad into a pimp pad.
Hell yeah !!! 9th in the larest JTL race in the C runners... top ten baby!!!
I know it aint first, but first time in the top ten.
Feeling stoked i post in the jtl thread... and i see another race in the forum.. look around see one for ashtons, 77 laps at 700+ entry fee. Maybe thats the race thats the next race a rando mentioned. Cool, win or lose I could use more racing skill... enter,... see other participants.... think to myself " welp! I aint getting first place in this race either " lol
I wonder who i pissed off... and how. Been getting hospitalized alot today. It's big account whoever it is or they...,it wasnt the same weapon every time and sometime it was just and attack and leave instead of hospitalization but it was brutal. One or two hits and boom. Really rough when one is trying to work the market. Meh such is torn life. Folks can spend their E however they like. I still pray and tithe myself. I spend my E and money on everything else so why not? Ya know...
I do wish we had a means to respond to stealth attackers though. Even if it was just one way communication. Cause id love to know what the hospitalizations were about. Was my white senet pawn priced too low? Maybe Todd thought I needed a few lumps. Could of been random. No clue why. And i may never know if they never choose to communicate. Oh well. Keep training and chaining. That's about all anyone that commits can do.
Heard someone sold a dumb bell SE for 35mil in trade chat today. Dont know if thats true but I wouldn't put it past one of my fellow covid accounts.